No more babies :(
I have only recently found out that i do actually have APS. I have two beautiful children that I am VERY blessed to have. i have been advised that I should have anymore children. I thought I was fine with that, but always seem to find myself thinking about it. Maybe it is the fact that I feel the decision has been made for me rather than me and my hubsand making it. I feel awful for having a moan about this... as I know so many of you have such sad stories about miscarges.
I always wanted 4 kids .... so maybe that is why I feel so upset about this. Pregnacy was not easy with both my kids... my first one is where they found I had a PE in my lungs (this is where all the started I guess) Then my second I was vomiting day and night from 5 weeks to 38 weeks (plus having a 1yr old to care for!)
Currently I am on methotrexate as one of main problems was that I was having very bad joint pain. I have been on this for 2mths & I am noticing such a difference now. Not in pain all the time, and I don't find myself wanting to have a sleep every day! While I am on these meds, there is something like a 90% chance that if you fell pregnant the baby would be deformed. So its not an option just yet, as I do want to get myself well again before any babies.
Thanks for listening/reading about my wee moan. I know that I am very lucky to have 2 amazing kids... but not sure I feel finish yet.